And You Came to My Rescue

My whole life I place in Your hands
God of Mercy, humbled I bow down
In Your presence, at Your throne

I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue and I
Wanna be where You are

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Lord, I am so sorry for doubting You.

Even though it totally breaks my heart today REALISING how many people I know are fatherless and how many people are hurting today because they don’t have a father to celebrate father’s day with, I realised that there is nothing You can call me to, or ask me to do, or any message You want me to declare, that can be considered peripheral. It made me realise that any little dream that You put upon my heart is SO important because it really MEANS something, and can change someone’s life, and You would not have called me to do it if it did not also break Your heart a million times more than it did mine.

Lord if I haven’t heard You wrong all those years back, please let me do this even though I know I will whine about it throughout the entire process and even though I have absolutely NO IDEA how I’m gonna fit all my “little” dreams that really aren’t all that little into THIS little life that You have given me. Because I want to have compassion for these people the way You do. I want to help them and I want to have an opportunity to touch the lives of this fatherless generation and tell them that they are NOT fatherless after all, because their heavenly father loves them more than they can ever imagine. It’s the kind of love no one can put words to, it’s the kind of love no one can talk about without breaking down and just making a fool out of themselves, it’s the kind of love that never ever ends and never tires itself out loving, and it’s the kind of love that we need the most.

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In my life, be lifted high
In our world, be lifted high
In our love, be lifted high

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I was debating with God about the same old thing.

And I said, “God, these people who have never heard of You…they need You more than all these ‘intellectual’ people who waste their lives MOCKING You. And they are just so pretentious and this and that…”

And it was crazy, God very gently showed me that this is exactly why they need Him – and in some ways, they need Him MORE than those who have never heard of Him, because they’re deliberately rejecting Jesus and subscribing to their own self-made gods designed in their own image – because these people are so empty inside all they have to hide behind is an “intellectual” facade. That is their way of asserting their self-importance so they can convince themselves that they have a lot of worth, and that they don’t need God to love them.

And He showed me Hebrews 12:3 and in my Bible it said “Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people, then you won’t become weary and give up”, and there was an asterik next to it and the footnote said, “Some manuscripts read Think of how people hurt themselves by opposing Him.”

And wow when I read that I just felt very sure that the most important thing God wanted me to get out of that verse is that He hurts so much when people hurt themselves by opposing Him. It isn’t even their act of turning against Him that hurts Him as much, but it’s the fact that these people are just groping around in darkness, planning their own self-destruction, thinking that they’re doing well, or pretending that they’re doing well and they don’t need Him, that really really hurts Him.

And I felt God just giving me a kind of understanding about how intellectual people feel inside and it was absolutely heartbreaking for me. Maybe because I know that I was so nearly like that. I could’ve been so nearly like that if God didn’t pull me out of it through Chinh.

And of course it’s so easy to just say, “God I’ll do anything You want me to” but it’s so much harder to just trust that God knows what He’s doing even when He’s throwing you into the lion’s den or wherever.

But He does, and I know that I owe all that I am to a God who loves me so much that all that He asks me to do is to make sure that people around me are not hurting themselves too by rejecting Him. Because these people don’t know how lost they are…and how God feels when He looks at them.

And I think they deserve to know, because He was so overcome with grief that He died for them, He died for everyone.